Monday, October 26, 2009

Why people expect too much?

"When lights go down, I see no reason
For you to cry. We've been through this before
In every time, in every season,
God knows I've tried
So please don't ask for more"

"I read your mind, with no intentions
Of being unkind, I wish I could explain
It all takes time, a whole lot of patience
If it's a crime, how come I feel no pain"


lately, I found myself caught in miserable after several people kept asking about my weight...

I looked at the mirror and observed myself...

There's a very thin barrier between me and my actual happiness...

this thin barrier was what actually caused my 'deceiving' appearance...

You may see me as a normal person..

I talked, I laughed, I joked, I tickled and I even smiled wide...

"If I fall along the way
Pick me up and dust me off
And if I get too tired to make it
Be my breath so I can walk"

Actually, I'm deteriorated...
I love to say I'm HAPPY because I refused to be or even admit that I'm miserable...

but people keep expecting too much...but when I expect something from them, they resent me...

But why?

I think I'm a normal human being...(depends on how you define normal)

I'm not a superhuman who can ALWAYS read people mind, if I possessed this kind of power...I'm sure there'll be some side effect.

"If I need some other love
Give me more than I can stand
And when my smile gets old and faded
Wait around I'll smile again "

I don't like asking for support but like I said, I'm a normal human being who have 'support system' like everyone has...

I've live this life for 21 years, not yet a quarter of a century but still I can say I understand some aspects of life...

But please don't expect me know/understand too much about it...

"I think I'm moving
But I go nowhere
Yeah, I know that everyone gets scared
But I've become what I can't be"

I didn't show any pain...but my body will..
if cut me, I will bleed...I'll sleep for a long time, my body refuse to get up.

so, if you expect something from me..please let me think otherwise!


Anonymous said...

came across this post. Although its a bit too late(since its posted in 2009 :P), i kind of get what you mean..sometimes it is tiring to have to pretend that you can handle it all and everyone adds more to you because of it..sigh..just wish that someone will say "take it easy"

btw, beautiful poetry.

Leo "Ricky" Huzair said...

Surprising you happened to come across this post meh...

time passed and somehow I'm getting stronger (despite my weight still like that)

Tq, really appreciate that you've commented on this issue..