STAPLER

Korang sure ade best friend kan?

Yang rapat ngan korang kat dalam kelas, hostel, mase pegi makan n segalenya la...

Korang pun mesti cakap yang kononnye BFF la, BF, FF, FUTE la...

Pendek kata korang sayang kawan korang bukan??

Hahahahahaha....mengarut itu semua.

Sebab aku pernah gak cakap macam tuh tapi hasilnye...hurm

Tapi don't get me wrong ok?

Aku terangkan awal2, aku bukan nak fire sesape kat sini tapi aku cume nak crite suatu story yang agak 'mengejutkan'

Well...dulu mase kat Sekolah Alam Shah waktu tingkatan 4 dulu.

Aku rapat ngan sorang kawan namenya Fazrul, duk sebelah aku kat kelas 4 Maju.

Dier sangat pandai lebih2 lagi dalam subjek Maths sedangkan aku sgt jauh berbeza drpdnya...

So, 1 fine evening waktu prep kalau x silap...

Aku sedang bertungkus-lumus membuat latihan Add Maths bab Function (fungsi)

Fazrul dah siap, budak pandai la katekan..aku mintak dier hint tp dier sruh aku usaha lagi..

tapi dier dok main2 stapler kat tangan aku...aku x tau la ape yang dier fikir mase tuh.

Sampai 1 tahap aku rase annoyed sgt2 dgn ape yang dier buat...

So, aku cakap dalam hati jek...lagi sekali dier buat, aku stapler tangan dier!!

But then, he did it again...

Can u guess what happen after that?

I STAPLERED MY BEST FRIEND's HAND

Yep...I still can remember the picture inside my head

Macam mane kaki 'bullet' tuh tertusuk sebelah kat tangan kiri dier...

I was shocked myself because he was no ordinary person to me, not a stranger n not an enemy..

BUT MY BEST FRIEND.

I pulled that bullet myself and after that we didn't say a word...

I think we didn't talk to each other for a week...more or less

Aku pun x ingat sama ada aku pernah mintak maaf kat dier atau tidak...

Both of us NEVER tell the story to ourselves anymore..

That's why aku cakap...BFF, BF, FF tuh semua mengarut.

Sebab aku sayang diorang macam mane pun aku akan tetap 'luka'kn diorang...sama ade aku mksudkan atau x..

Tapi at least, aku x tikam dier dari belakang ar...aku prefer tikam dari depan, nampak sikit muke kesakitan.
Haahahaahaha...

To tell that, I'm capable of taking a bullet for my friend but I'm also capable of putting a bullet to my friend...

Hurm, Fazrul...aku tau mmg sakit kene stapler tuh sampai aku x sure mintak maaf tuh sesuai x utk ko mase tuh..

Bagi aku, kalau nak mintak maaf kat ko, ko kne stapler aku balik tmpt yang sama...

Aku sanggup terima tuh tapi aku tau ko x sanggup buat sebab ko orang yang sangat baik..

Guys, be careful...u might just not get a stapler after this..

Adios!!

Akhirnya...

Akhirnya...

Si Z mengakui kasih kepada si Z menyebabkan si F makan hati dan bergaduh dengan J...

Akhirnya...

Setelah sebulan lebih sahabatku Stripe tiada, si J ajak aku keluar sama2...mimpi ape ntah.

Akhirnya...

Si A berasa aman dengan hidupnya bersama si W tanpa kata2 daripada si B..

Akhirnya...

Si J mengatakan terdapat seorang yang baru dalam hidupnya?? musykil2...

Akhirnya...

Kipas bilik aku dah bersih n kembali sejuk sebab si J tuh anak Sultan, x boleh kene habuk or panas2..

My Love, Forgive Me...

When I was a little boy...

I used to play a lot with my younger brother...

Beside that, we also fought a lot...

Until now, I'm not sure why were w fighting for..

But when I was about 5-6 years old...

My beloved mother was pregnant for her 8th child...

You what was I feeling at that moment?

I was very2 happy until I don't what's in my mind anymore..

Everything's going up well and the baby was confirmed to be a girl..

I have always wanted a little sister and I hope she will not bring me pain like my brother did...

BUT...

1 day, when I was playing in my mother's room while she was lying on her bed...

I stepped on her thumb (kaki)...

You know that a pregnant's woman thumb is very sensitive?

So, what happen after that...my mother was having a miscarriage.

I was broken down and keep on asking my mother why was it happening..

My mother said that "takde rezeki"

But I know, it was my fault...

Knowing that at a very young age, I grew up searching for 'her' forgiveness..

I wonder if she ever question me in the after life because of my fault, she didn't have the chance to see her mother, father, sisters and brothers...

She was about 16-17 years old now...will I get the chance to see her 1 day?

I wanted to ask a forgiveness for her own brother faulty...

My Love, Forgive Me...

Sincerely, your brother..

AFUNNYSTORYIFIT'SCATEGORIEDTHERE

Once upon a time...

When I was on phone with Mieza discussing bout something..

I received a msg and I read it after I finished talking..

To my surprise, it's a msg indicated that 'somebody' had topped up my maxis no RM10...

At first, I thought that one of my sisters did that but they rarely topped me up without I'm asking...(IF I' am asking pun, susah gak nak dapat..hahahaha)

Then I thought, Hidayah did it later I doubted it...

Then, an anonymous no called me and I answered..

It was an Indian or maybe Bangla

He told me that he falsely put my no instead of his no...(haram betul bikin gempak jek)

And he asked me if I could somehow transfer it back to him...

Who would trust a Bangla right?

Yeah...I didn't and not just Bangla I guess.

But still I intended to give back what's not mine, to tell you that I'm not trying to show that I'm honest or what..

Maxis line was in trouble that night and I sent him a msg telling him that I'll try later when the line is fine..

He didn't reply...

The next day, I tried to do it again but to do a transfer, my credit balance must have over RM4 after I've transfer it.

I held it again and he didn't ask me of that anymore, maybe he's giving up to think that no one's WILL ever return his RM10 credit.

But I've PROMISED him...

Later I got some money from my dad and I topped up my no and redo the transfer and successful!!

STILL no response from him, but who cares? I did my part..

about 2 days later, I got a strange msg...

It's wrote like this..

FROMEKLASTTHANKYOUYOUBACKMYMANYIAMPPPRAUDOFYOYUSLIMPIPLETRUTHFULMAN

WTF right?

It was from that guy, when I caught the last line, I was smiling...

NOBODY ever labelled me that...

How I Miss My Stripe So Much

We began our acquaintance since November last year...

Since then, you were my most loyal companion...

We hangout together, going to places that I've always wanted to be that can't be achieved without your kind...

I know I've treated you recklessly all this time but still you bent it like it didn't happen...

When I'm with you, people will look at us and starting to shout my name...(not to cheer)

I'm not afraid if they do something to me but I'm scared to death if you ARE their target.

With you by my side, I got the chance to get close with my nephews and niece..

But now, something happened and we have to part way...

I can't no longer hear your 'voice'...

I can't no longer see how fierce your 'eye' used to look...

I remembered the time when we were on our way to MPP's Election and we're both 'hurt'..

How love towards you too powerful until I forgot to get my own 'treatment' but send you instead.

I can't stand to see you in pain...I cried for you more than I cried for myself.

I really miss you my loyal companion....you might not hear me but this the best I can do for now.

One day, I'll come back for you and strong you used to be then we'll go roaming again..

Aku terasa macam penat jek..

Teman2 sekalian...


Aku masih macam biase...tiada ape yang lain.


Cume aku fikir macam2 perkara sekarang dan bukan semuanya masalah...


I don't tell you because aku terasa benda2 ni memenatkan minda aku and surely akan memenatkan minda korang..


Last2 benda yang aku cakap seolah2 jadi kosong and tak bermakna langsung..


Aku xde marah dengan sesape cume aku rase nak reducekan segalenye and ty something different...


Maybe aku akan pergi somewhere kot..huhuhu


Sure ramai akan cakap..."ape gunenye ade kawan kan?"


Bagi aku, aku tak rela mempergunakan mereka...lebih2 lagi dalam keadaan ini.


Dalam keadaan senang pun aku macam tak pedulikan diorg tibe2 dalam keadaan macam ni nak terhegeh2 kat diorg plak...


Biarlah...kalau aku derita, biar aku derita sorang2. Kalau aku kecewa, biarkan aku sorang2.


It's just that I lost my interest untuk berkongsi...

I'm at the downside of myself

Now...

I don't think I can't handle it anymore...

My mind is flooded by lots of thing..

Each matter I tried to skip then come another one..

I skip this, the matter before came back...

I'm breathless...my pride and dignity as a man slowly being swallowed.

I feel like I'm in the brink of despair...

No...I'm not whining.

For the first time I'm afraid...I'm afraid of myself..

what will I turn to after this...

I don't like asking for help and I won't...

I'll help myself and every single thing in my mind...

I just wish I could speak directly to Him but who am I?

It's clear that....

I'm losing myself..

Oh....shut up please!

NEVER

Sometimes you just won't listen to people...

And that things happen exactly the same to you when you ask them to listen...

Hahahahaha...well, I understand how life works so far.

With every people in it with every traits they have...

So, be it...you can't just simply run away. (Run Forrest, Run!!)

I always being supportive no matter how hard I tried not too.

But now, for this matter..it happen backward!!

I tried to be supportive but I can't...I don't know why is this happening.

It really troubles me with uneasy feelings you know?

So, I will never indulge in his personal right anymore...whatever he thinks he could be, it's up to him.

He's smart enough so be it...I'm not up to his standard, far below him.

But don't get me wrong, it doesn't mean I didn't care...

I JUST HAVE TO DO WHAT I HAVE TO