Changing 'Love'

It's not that I like to damn people...

It's not that I wanna stabbed people from the back...

I'm writing here to express my feeling and thinking towards some matters...

Love can be explained in various ways...so many until you can't be sure whether it's right or wrong...

I love my family, friends-frenemy and looking forward to have love by opposite sex...

I love mainly towards girl and I want to spend my life time loving GIRLS/WOMEN..

I hold on to these principles whole time..

This is what I mean, Changing Love...

Whether you're a man 'loving' a man, woman 'loving' woman...this is seem a natural phenomenon these days...

why is this happening??

I heard that they 'changed' because they're frustrated with their normal love life...(the opposite sex rejected their love, being played by them or some other situation)

Man...so, unfortunate.

I experienced the same situation...in fact lots of time and I counted it to be 27 times (I'm only 20 years old)

But, I STILL haven't change my love needs...I love girls/women and always be.

people always say, "Don't speak to soon, you'll never know what will happen the next second"

yes, it's true...maybe now, I won't change but sooner or later...I will!!

but I BELIEVE in myself...even the number reached 30 times, I still believe in myself that, men are created for women and women are created for men. I'm not gonna change it.

so mate, if you feel like changing your love needs, think about it several time..think about me, be strong like what I'm trying to be....if you feel supportless, turn to me. I can support you through everything...

Let's be strong...

Sivaji : The Boss

Weh...I've been looking for this movie quite a long time.

(not the type to go to cinema watching Tamil movie huh...jatuh standard lak!!)

Finally, after surveying some video stall...I manage to find this DVD.

I watched it at 2.35 a.m and finished it at 7 a.m...(skipping the "singing" part, stop for a while searching for food, online and u shouldn't confuse why it's late)

I heard this movie causing some troubles during their screening at cinema....

people enraging because of some technical errors during screening, burning the cinema down...(not in my town la)

I wonder why such film causing that kind of trouble, it must have a large sum of viewers to make it happened...when comes to number of viewers, I assumed this movies is something worth watching..

Have u watched it?

I strongly recommend you watch it...

This is a story of a man named Sivaji, who just returned from America after working 9-5 to gain money for his ambition...to build a university and hospital for the needed.

(I admired his noble intention...just wonder whether there are people like him in the real world)

Every hero must have their own problem, same goes to this Sivaji...his noble manner was objected by a known powerful man name Aadhi.

His saving, 250 million rupees gone without settlement of his dreams...(even after he was forced to bribe 16 department in government and he's turned down by it)

just like a quotation,

"walk in like a Duke, walk out like a duck"

He's left with shame and penniless...(Aadhi humiliated him by "donating" him a penny)

He's down and frustrated and to add into his gloomy moment...his dream girl refused to marry him because of some premonition.

but it was just for a moment, he stood up and face it like a man...using the penny that Aadhi gave him as a lucky coin. (noted you that, he got style in fact he's a superstar)

He turned into "The Boss"

He used all the nearly same method that his enemy used against him before...(blackmailing for a start)

He soon discovered there are a lot of so called 'black money' hidden by the rich people across India...he used his intelligence as a graduate from America university in line of computer science to retrive the money and converted it into legal.

At last, he managed to fulfill his dream to help people...

but his enemy weren't finished...they came up with plans to bring him down at ANY cause.

(it's a Tamil movie maa, no surprise if I tell you the details...)

It's a well planned movie plus it's Rajni, he got style...cool!!)

that all folks...this is my opinion so far.

Feeling Down?

Ar normal rate....people usually have some time called their 'moment of silence'

as a mere human, I also have that.

In the "moment of silence"...it happens without a specific pattern.

meaning that they don't have specific time and place...

this moment usually happens when somebody needs 2 reconsider or rethink of an action...

it's also time for limiting an action that has been done...

Let me tell you a story...

One day, when I was hanging out with my friends...everything seems to go normally until....

an unwise man came upon us with degraded social skills...

the way he talked bursting ourselves to laugh...without thinking of what he felt.

we kept on laughing...laughing...as long as that man was talking.

Until...that man stopped talking and without saying anything he left.

at that moment, I have experienced so called 'moment of silence'

without my friends knowing....

I stopped talking to them, even when they recalled the 'unwise man' story.

I'd gone completely different!!

My friends started to notice my sudden change in behaving..

an hour later, I was back to 'normal'...I talked and laugh a little.

they started 2 ask me question which I couldn't answer...

'Moment of silence' is a moment which you try to forgive your own self without you knowing it...

if this 'moment' happened to you, don't worry...you're not abnormal or crazy...just little, depends on how long it happened la...

like I said in my previous post, see something with other perspective!!

Frenemy??

can we befriended someone and at the same time we make them our enemy?

I got this FRENEMY thing from the series Kyle XY season 2..

My answer to this question is yes...

it's quite catchy...

bcoz when I look at the world I'm living...every friends I have are qualified as FRENEMY.

u can say that I'm being totally hypocrite....I agree, hypocrite is something I'm good at.

bear in your mind, we can't run away from being a hypo...unless you're a prophet.

I always found out in myspace, friendster or facebook...people seems to hate the hypocrites.

"saye x suke dgn golongan hipokrit, klu awk antarenye sila jauhkn diri daripada saye!!"

wah...I was thinking to myself.

"dier benci diri sendiri kot, so dier nk jauhkn diri sendiri"

people being hypocrite because they're afraid the reflection of themselves.

have u asked yourself, at some circumstances, you're part of them?

I'm not saying this as an escapism...me myself surrounded by them.

you can hate me if you want...it's you.

as for me, I prefer not to hate 'them'

n I'm encouraging you to feel the same...the more you hate them, the more you're surrounded by them...

give it a try beb...

FRENEMY is a good word.

I'm one of them, n I admitted it n thank goodness I have the courage to admit it...

the question is do you??

think about it my FRENEMY, not all in the world are bad or good.

you just have to see it from other perspective.

I wish you good luck.!!

What Girls/Women Like?

What is actually a girl or woman like?

don't ask me coz I don't know...

not really la...

After my childhood experience with girls...

it was only for 6 years and still I can't get up 2 myself about girls..

then I went 2 all-boys school for another 5 years...

it separated me from girls that I'm longing 2 understand...

oh boy..

When I watched movies or series, I'm touched by what I think I should have experienced...

I don't have experience in having relationships...ANY.

1 of my friends told me that I should concentrate on my study...

yeah, they're right.

when I think back again...

how am I going 2 story 2 my children 1 day if they encountered a problem in relationship??

new generation kids are something we can't predict what type are they...

I can't face it if they'll see me as I'm not a good 'example' for them...

I will marry someone 1 day but at my children age, I don't have any experience!!

I'm thinking it deep, deep and deeper...

surely u can say, simply bluff your children using your friend's experiences la...

it's not that I'm desperate for love...love will come by anytime and give a visit.

just wondering why I don't have the chance just like in movies or series...

Am I not lucky enough?

I a man...I want 2 be strong but somehow my feelings fail me.

You may see me as unaffected but deeply inside my heart...I cry

not just when watching movies...even hearing my friends story simply 'locked' me up....

I tried my best 2 get the best...but I failed.

I'm doing simple research and I found that...

women don't like men with good images...

example...they said that they don't like a man who smokes but they ended up couple with a heavy smoker..

they love men that can play instrument such as guitar...

currently they don't like romantic type...

I usually been rejected by the reason that I'm too good...

what the f***??

see?? they don't like men with good images...

I think they're afraid that good men can't protect them or good men drawn them 2 jeopardy...

it's not that I blame mainly on girls....I, as a man also have weaknesses.

ok...too long for now..

I stop here...

Damn!! It's 27 time...

Guys................

now I'm officially frustrated for the 27 times..

I don't know whether to trust women again or not..

I thought I mess around with their hearts, it turned to me instead...

haih...

Why?

i didn't have any intention to break somebody's hearts but mine left unprotected...

I wanted to cry but no use crying for something isn't mine though...

People always say, "gagal sekali tak bermakna gagal selamanye"

but how about 27 times??

Shall I complete it to 30 instead?

F*** -sorry not you guys-

Shall I try again, again and again?