Cuts Like A Knife

You touched my life
with a softness in the night
my wish was your command
until you ran
out of love
I tell my self I'm free
got the chance of
living just for me
no need to hurry home
now that you're gone
CHORUS
Knife
cuts like a knife
how will I ever heal
I'm so deeply wounded
knife
cuts like a knife
you cut away the
heart of my life
When I pretend wear a smile
to fool my dearest friends
I wonder if they know
it's just a show
I'm on a stage day and night
I go through my charades
but how can I disguise
what's in my eyes
(Repeat CHORUS)
Oh oh oh oh oh ...
I've try and try locking up
the pain I feel inside
the pain of wanting you
wanting you
(Repeat CHORUS)

Hurm....this is what happening to me right now.
my heart feels like ripping off.
have u ever feel truly love somebody but he/she treats u like hell??
u start to abandon him/her but in your deepest heart's core, u still care?
watching her/him change but unable to do anything bcoz u tell urself u care no more..
that's what cutting me like a paper...can u feel the same?
I expressed my feelings through songs...
I really wish to tell her that I still care n forgiving her but I don't have that will power anymore...
Should I do nothing and accept the pain?

What happened?

I have a friend...

A girl...

I know her nearly 1 year I guess...

Yeah..she's a good friend and I like the way she thinks..

we used to sms and talked almost about our daily life..

I said "used to"

now...

she seems to stray away from me...

I don't know why..

She said that she's busy...

I get it and understand..

Nah...she take Geophysic kot.

Compare to mine, she's far more busy...

I went to her university for a work trip...

I longing to see her because haven't seen her for a long time...

At that her university organized a big event and she involved.

I didn't expect for her to spend time with me because so far for my knowledge I know she's busy...

we just met for 2-3 words...

That was ok for me...

and I went back with half frustrated...

I waited for her sms but not even 1 from her...

that made me think whether I've made a mistake...

she treated me so cold...

If she's not happy with her life...

I've told her that she can count on me...

I promised that I'll try to be on her side when she needed.

But if heart distances can be count, I feel her miles away from me..

hurm...great. What have I done?